I don't want that hideous memory in my head. I'm just gonna write it... let it out....so that people will know the truth. I'm not hiding anymore. Not this year. i don't want a repeat of last year... a big fat white seed slept in the sky that night... I was still Rachel's friend and she had gotten me and my other used-to-be friends in a cheerleader party with pure seniors, beer, and music. I worried myself because i stared drinking. I just step outside for a few minutes and-BAM! i get raped by IT- Andy Evans, the beast.